I’m married to my morning routine, maybe to the point that I’m a bit OCD about it. I wake up, grab the paper from the porch, remove the elastic and lay it out just so on the kitchen table, fix myself my ‘wake-up tummy!’ drink of water+freshly squeezed lemon juice+apple cider vinegar while the coffee brews, and typically get started on making my breakfast depending on what I feel like having that day. Then I sit down with my coffee, breakfast and the paper for some quiet reading and face-stuffing until it’s time to get moving. Yesterday, two key components to my morning routine were missing: breakfast (most importantly) and the newspaper, as it was a holiday. Still, I made my drink and coffee, opted for a book in lieu of the paper, and inhaled some jello as ‘breakfast’. As I sat outside reading Poser by Claire Dederer (highly recommend!), I found myself thinking “eh, this isn’t so bad! I’m not even hungry in the slightest bit, this is going to be cake!” (just realized I keep using that expression, clearly I want cake. Pancakes. Anything sweet, fluffy and baked…). Even so, things just felt very off from the get-go.
Since I can’t run due to injury and inability to refuel afterwards, I opted for a walk. Typically, this would be with Charlie but yesterday I just wanted to go at it alone and treat myself to Starbucks afterwards. I went to Malden Park, aka Runner’s Paradise, and walked the hilly trails there. If there was anything to be gained from having to slow it down on the running/work-out front, it’s that you notice so much that you never did when you’re ‘in the zone’ and training. I discovered TONS of trails in the park that I never knew existed. I always thought there was just the giant hill and the paved trail around it, I had no clue that if you actually go into the hill, there are even more hills, with paved trails, dirt trails, rocky trails, trodden-grass trails – every kind of terrain imaginable! If I need to do a hill workout, I’ll take it to Malden. And if I need to work on speed: Malden! Trail running or practice with various kinds of terrain? Malden! Flat road running? You guessed it, Malden! You can train for virtually any kind of race there, it’s incredible. The views from the tops of these hills are just breathtaking, too, and getting to stop and appreciate them was a nice change from just running past and giving a quick glance. After the park, I walked to Starbucks nearby and got myself coconut water and a venti iced coffee. That coffee just hit the spot, it was hot and I was thirsty. Then I went to Rexall just across the street, where they had Aquafina Vitamin Water on sale, 2 for 2:50! And the strawberry-lemonade flavor was miraculously clear! YAY! I grabbed 4 of those and then called my mom to pick me up. In the end, 5.4 miles of solid walking and climbing, not too shabby!
When I got home, I dawned my bathing suit for the first time this summer, laid out a towel in the back and rolled on to my belly to lay out in the sun for a bit, because you know I hadn’t been in the sun ALL morning or anything. I wasn’t out there long, I started to feel light-headed and packed it in. By this point, I was starting to really feel hungry, and a little grouchy. My mom and Nonna were in the kitchen getting things ready for dinner, like breading chicken and boiling all of my kale (boiling veggies makes me sad, all those nutrients just leeched out into the water…) since I won’t be able to eat it. Note to self: don’t stock up on groceries the week of a colonoscopy.
I was so sleepy at this point, and hungry. I could feel a headache coming on. I wondered what I could drink to get my energy up and make me feel full while I waited on the turkey broth my mom was making for me (bless her!) when it dawned on me that I could get some kombucha tea! We headed over to Fred’s Farm Fresh Market, this cute little market that’s kind of like a Whole Foods, where they have all kinds of healthy-foodie stuff you can’t find in a regular grocery store, and picked up some Citrus Kombucha. They also had miracle noodles, which are so hard to find, and protein chips and just all kinds of goodies! You know what else they had going on in there? Free samples of fruit, guacamole, cheese…like come on!! I was so bummed. That guac looked delicious.
The kombucha saved me. It filled my tummy and perked me up a bit. When I got home, I warmed up some broth and watched TV for a bit. Then it was the moment I was dreading: taking a laxative. I kept hearing how horrible it is, that you’re running to the toilet every 2 seconds so to expect not to sleep. The stuff itself is NASTY. Whoever thought flavoring this ‘milk of magnesia’ junk with mint was a moron, like can a girl get some vanilla up in here? After downing it and chugging water afterwards to distill the taste as much as possible, I was starting to feel nauseous, I was crabby, and a little bloated. The rest of the night kind of followed suit, I couldn’t wait to just go to sleep. I had some more broth, made some sugar cookie tea and watched the beginning half of Brave before calling it a night. And by night, I mean getting up every 2 hours to pee. The effects of the laxative haven’t really been felt, at least not to the extent that I’ve heard about. There are still 2 other things I have to drink to clear me out today, once at 2pm and again at 8pm, so we’ll see how that goes. I’m kind of scared…
Day one, all in all, wasn’t awful but was no picnic either. I miss food, solid, chewy food. That’s honestly the worst part of it all. I hate feeling so zapped of energy. I want to go out and do things, to move, go to body pump and spin class, go for a run – but I can’t, and that’s frustrating. I’m bored. TV doesn’t do it for me, and surfing the web only keeps me occupied for so long before I’m over it. I’m in a constant “just don’t feel like it” mood. And the tummy gurgling is starting to get really off-putting, especially when trying to sleep. I keep reminding myself I’m practically halfway through this whole thing, I can do this! I just need to hang in there and not fixate on being hungry or tired or blah because that will just make it worse. Instead, I’m trying to think of what I’ll eat first when I get back to my regular diet and the run I’ll go on to Malden Park!
I’m debating right now between overnight oats (I have an almost-empty jar of peanut butter waiting for me), pancakes, waffles, a green smoothie or chia protein pudding for my first meal back. That, or roasted kabocha with a mug cake baked in it, or BBQ kabocha and eggs. Or ‘egg in a hole’, this cool thing I saw while watching Eat St. where the guy fried an egg, cut a hole in a piece of bread and then placed it over the yolk, so when you break it, it’ll seep into the bread and be all delicious. Or maybe I’ll treat myself to a restaurant meal, because who really wants to spend time cooking after you spent 2-3 days not eating?! And I want to bake something! Maybe a healthy, GF bread like carrot or zucchini bread, and I’ve been dying to make a raw dessert, like mini cashew-cheesecakes. So much to do! So much to plan! See, not being able to prepare and eat food leaves plenty of quality time to go on dreaming about it.
What would you eat for your first meal back if you had to fast for a few days?
Any suggestions on a good overnight-oat combo that I could make?